Lost In Love
I am a simple girl who has a simple thoughts...and would like to jot down all traces of beautiful memory day by day
Just a thought for the day
28 Aug 2008
I have got my permanent pass on the 26th Aug..and my landyard. Look like perm staff hor? But still part time sad to say. Well need to work hard on my job now and dont want to think about other things already. You know what i meant. I am so sad...his friend all seemed to know my existence. Sometime I feel that I am trying to ruin the whole thing. I dunno why i feel so tired about the guessing game. I hope I can get the answer soon. And that I really like him. I have no reason to explain to you why this time I am serious about him and at the same time that i think he likes me too. The last time I am at T1 working night shift and the last time I go to their place, his friend informed me about the pass application is being approved and so I thanked him for informing me though..and i left. Till night time came when i was about to return my last visitor pass... a chinese guy suddenly look at me ..his eyes was very big. He was about to stand up n wanted to tell me sumthin but hold bk. I was like...ok lo ...wad u wan me to say? So i left quietly....and that is my last time. And for now...he has lost track on me now..wihtout my IC. I can only hope that his heart for me is still there....if he dont find me. No one will. And my heart hurts that he gave me a cold face bk in 1 week. But well that its ok...and everything will come to an end if its suppose to be I think. Let fate decides. I wanted to give up on him for letting me feel so tired. I had enough...and I will give him a chance if he were to come find me. And thats the lest I can do nw.
Waiting and keep waiting for nothing
19 Aug 2008
You know what? I saw him last night... its already 19 days kind of thing. 19th Aug. So do i sound surprised and excited? No right?? I have no idea. His friends are all giggling when I am approaching. He is still standing there acting cool..right hand on his hips. His face has no expression though I have tried to smile. He is so cold to me. His friend make noise again saying wa this one POWER!! And it shocked me. Trying to gain attention? So stupid. Then eventually theres no reaction from him. And I dont understand why he want to act so cool infront of me. Then he react after I leave and go behind to say wa lao to his friend. I am thinking is he trying to play me? I am so worried that I will be a victim. 28 some ppl is already a father.. and trying to be funny? Perhaps I think I could have sense it wrongly. He always dont smile to me..he is so cold...I feel so cold inside all of a sudden. Sometimes I think if he is sincere to be at lest a friend? But why he always do things that turned me off. Maigong says...be prepare alot of things. Maybe hes playing? Maybe its real ? Find out what you should find out first... he said. Perhaps hes a married man and trying to fool me out? Perhaps hes having fun. Kanye says sg theres alot of guys. You should know what he means. Well...my thought is.... if u r really single. You shouldnt have leave it as it is and somemore if u really had feels for me. I wonder if he catches my heart and is having great fun for making me like him? If this is the case ...he really SUX that I will hate him. No more pinning hopes...and I hope to get a perm pass soon. Till then everything will change..no more troubles to think about all those shyte hes doing to me and no more pass office for me.
I will be writing here...when I feel moody..
15 Aug 2008
Yup just got bk from work....and recall back those 3 days ago..its was totally stucked up. I dunno why I can suddenly be so pissed and fed up with the SPF. I was at T2...then when I got back my IC. He threw my IC and it turns upside down and got toss till it almost fly! OMG~ he got a very bad attitude. It sux so much. Then i msg Lina abt my unhappiness that they always do that to people and till then Aini keep asking me to request and say that I am silly dont want. I only know the reason why...cos of him. Sometimes I feel that he dont seems to know that I've always wanted to see him. To give up on him? And you know that it isn't easy for me. This feeling sux so much. See nw that is already 16th and I havent seen him near half a mth. Whatever?? It 's all becos of his colleague. Maybe this mth will b the last mth he will see me or he will nt see me anymore. Leave it to the heaven to decide?? My perm pass request is along the way.....alot of things is going to change. But my heart is still the same for him. Perhaps that I am too sensitive..but the world seems to know. Anyway...I think good that he wont c me so often and could be a big relief to him? Hard to say....and I feels that he is missing me. I wonder did he ever think of me? But I did and sometime even to smile if I ever thought of him. Today my left eye jump alot...and wen says that someone is missing you. But so what?! ..........hes a jerk and a big coward.
Going to C.A.P tmr !
05 Aug 2008
Last night i keng with jo..abt that guy and alot of things.. shes so freak and say wan go CAP for dinner. I say u dont purposely la.... u think will see de meh...but she deny say nt purposely de..but i know is purposely..pls la...~lols and what to have for dinner there? So sian lo..nothing there..i suggested MAC donalds...which is so sian. We meeting at kembangan mrt abt 6.15pm..go CAP nuah lo.. she sure say abt the guy. I dont wan hear liao la...sianz~ Sometimes me think that skali he dont have this meaning is me think too much. But then come to the right sense..then why did his friend wan kpo my things again? Jus nw i go maple n keep askin ppl....hong dou and prolifesaver all say that he likes me. I aso dunno...sian~ nu ren zhen ku ming..~ i think im in love ..
anyway i went to sch to see my photos...v nice effect...feel like developing all of them. LOL! but i develop one deqiang de..cos v gross i dont like...n all is jo n wen de...
i just browsed this from the web abt men's behaviour...dunno issit true or nt..
anyway i went to sch to see my photos...v nice effect...feel like developing all of them. LOL! but i develop one deqiang de..cos v gross i dont like...n all is jo n wen de...
i just browsed this from the web abt men's behaviour...dunno issit true or nt..
| How to Know if a Guy is Interested in You? | |
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Here are some tips for ladies to see if a guy is interested in you: If he's attracted to you, he will try to attract your attention. The way that he will go about it will be unique to him. Some guys may simply move so that they are in your line of sight. Other guys may engage is some extraordinary behavior so that your attention is directed towards them. Whatever the case, if he is interested, he will want to make you notice him, so that he can gauge whether or not you find him attractive in return. For example, if he is with a group of friends, he will stand slightly apart from them, as it will make him stand out visually and be more likely to attract your attention. Tip #4: The Face Tip #5: Body Position |
He is all I ever wanted..
04 Aug 2008
You know what? I am busy for two days and know back to my post again..and this time round abit more happening~ It was on 1 August...his friend saw me and was a chinese guy. He initiated to talk to me...he say hi..and followed on asking my age, i stay where..zzz'' I told him to guess my age lo....he say aiya i see IC many times i knew it le..i was thinking what why he so notice me. FREAK..then he ask me if I worked upstair..I was thinkin again its fei hua..then he ask why I dont want to work full time..and work part time. I told him that is for the time being...and he gave me a nbr ans say that its his friend who work job agency ask me call her.. initiately I thought he was goin to gimme the guys' nbr to create a chance but its not. Cos I ask Ellen to help me call le....and its not a guy's nbr and said that the ger was v fierce her when she called...seriously I was abit disappointed that its nt him. Dunno why....sigh~ Then during the cleaning, I drenched my pass into the pail that day..the paper in it was badly drenched Ellen they all were laughin like hell why its rotten nw..loL~ i say nvm la...who knows when this embrassing thing happened I saw him when Im returning the pass!!!!! my god....theres 3 guys there...initiatly I was like looking for him n he was standing on the left and always like that! Theres always a friend on his right...freak~~ he is nv alone I dont understand why..anyway theres one more thing I realise...he changed his spec to the same color which is what I am wearing nw...a black color one...god~ Seriously why it is so coincident...what is he tryin to do? I really really dun understand. I cant believe it..what he is tryin to imply? And while i was like smiling n embrassed abt the whole thing...and ask his friend if need to return or nt...his friend say yes but i didnt hear..then i was like blurred cos of him..then i return it to the malay guy. U know what? He was smiling so big to himself when he is lookin down searching for my IC...I am just wondering...if I did not make his day and why did he find it so funny but the malay guy nv laugh...zzzzz'' anyway I am acting cute...the malay has no reaction.LOL~ After everything i got back my IC i say thank n bb to the guy...he was like um um bye like so soft...LOL~~~he so shy ah? Dunoo y...but i sense that he likes being near to me...and nothing else..and I knew that he looks at me when I did not notice it..and i hope the next time i see him again..he is willing to start talking to me jus like his friend..and the whole incident today was like quite abit obvious..and i start to feel that he has big love for me...senses tells me that. Cos I believe he did that change for me..
Anyway I got this chance with him but in return i gt a thyroid illness..really dunno y life is always like that. At the happiest moment of my life I met him and theres abit of progress i gt this. And requires long term medications...sigh~ its goin to b a lifetime thing...i scare i cant bear kids for the one i love..cos nid alot medication...and seriously I am contented that I ever met him in my life...hes seems so sweet to me always and do alot of silly things for me..my feeling nw is...even he didnt wan to come date me..its ok though..cos its life. I ren ming.
Anyway I got this chance with him but in return i gt a thyroid illness..really dunno y life is always like that. At the happiest moment of my life I met him and theres abit of progress i gt this. And requires long term medications...sigh~ its goin to b a lifetime thing...i scare i cant bear kids for the one i love..cos nid alot medication...and seriously I am contented that I ever met him in my life...hes seems so sweet to me always and do alot of silly things for me..my feeling nw is...even he didnt wan to come date me..its ok though..cos its life. I ren ming.


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